I’m from Red Wing, Minnesota, and I grew up in a Christian family. I went to Concordia University and graduated with a teaching degree. I was married twice, but neither marriage lasted. After my 2nd divorce I had lots of depression and anxiety. My issues really began when I started self-medicating with pot, wine, and cigarettes.
I fell in love with a man and he introduced me to meth. I trusted him. And when I was hooked, the abuse started.
I didn’t realize I was addicted to drugs at first, it just felt like partying a lot. But we lost everything and ended up homeless, living in a van. Throughout my life I have struggled with co-dependence; because of that, and because of my addiction to meth, I walked away from everything familiar to be with an abusive man that I barely knew.
By the grace of God, my mom and sister figured out where I was and found a way to rescue me from that horrible life. But once I was safe and back at home, I still felt lost and didn’t know what to do next. I still struggled with addiction. One day, my sister had a seemingly random conversation with someone who was a former client at MnTC; my sister came home and told me she knew what was next for me. I still believe that was God steering me here.
When I came into the program, I was just a shell with low self-esteem and no joy in my soul. Now I have regained hope and see my value in Jesus. I have been loved upon and lifted up.
It’s still hard for me to believe that the pandemic happened while I was in treatment. My roommate tested positive and had to go into quarantine, which was also hard on me. I had just discovered a sister to go through the program with me, and now, I thought, I have to do it alone. But the staff here went above and beyond to make us feel comfortable and connected. I leaned into my faith in God, and that got me through the low spots.
Peace for me, is being able to heal after going through so much trauma. I now feel the Holy Spirit in my heart.